heavyweaponsbot | 13th Transmission

[The tension returned as soon as he pulled back. Shoulders hunched up, and he fingered the injury, just for something to do with his hands. It wasn't fixed--he doubted it ever would be while they were on this ship.

"Talk to him. Please. As a favor to me?"

He was silent a moment more, intakes working.]

... You did as well as you could.

[ The voice surprises him, his optics widening slightly as he glances over at the other.

He hadn't expected him to say a word, let alone attempt to reassure him. That was dangerously close to showing some modicum of friendship. ]

Which was not enough, unfortunately.

[He still won't look at him, and apparently the floor is the most interesting thing in the room. What is he supposed to say? Or do? He doesn't want to make contact... have this or any other conversation.

But he hates this distance too. What else is he supposed to do?]

Did well enough.

[ Personally, Ratchet prefers the ceiling. My, it is very interesting - almost moreso than his hand. ]

I suppose.

I... will leave you be, then.

[He shifts, pulling away as best his position will allow. He promised Mikaela... but that doesn't mean he knows how.]

...

What... do you want me to say?

[ He pauses, joining him in staring at the floor. Anything but at Ironhide himself. ]

... I do not expect you to say anything.

[If he looks at him, all he can think about is what they did. The floor is safe. Even safer when he covers his faceplates with a hand.]

... do too. Do not... lie about it.

There is nothing to be said.

You told me not to speak about anything.

[ He internally winces at the cold tone, a soft sigh of air escaping his intakes. ]

I am not going to force you to speak to me, Ironhide. If you do not wish to talk, then... there is nothing to be said.

[He does not move, nor wince. Just shutters his optics behind his hand.]

I...

It... cannot... occur. Again. Avoiding you... I can ensure that.

...

[ He tilts his head slightly to actually look at the other, his expression not changing. ]

You could have ensured that by telling me. If you do not want it to happen again, simply say so - I understand.

We were intoxicated, and influenced by organic hormones. You did not have to avoid me.

[He still won't look at him. Or anywhere near him. He can't.]

... best if you... believed I... did not want to see you. Get intoxicated regularly around here... Who says it would not happen again?

[Some part of him, however, winces at that. It was only organic hormones and alcohol... nothing more. That hurts somehow.]

[ It was far easier to blame it on the hormones and alcohol, rather than admit that Ironhide was avoiding him because of what he felt. If he admitted it was anything other than that, he would likely never want to be around him again... ]

I would... better control myself, knowing that you feel uncomfortable.

[He wanted to blame the alcohol and hormones. But doing so made a part of him, a part he was in no way ready accept, ache. It just added to the reasons why he should avoid his friend.]

... Would not. Too much of a lightweight.

[ He put a hand on his hip, temporarily forgetting himself. ]

Oh?

You think I am incapable of controlling myself after a little Energon?

[Thankfully, he can't see it. He's too busy studying his palm.]

... You are putting words in my vocalizer.

Then what are you suggesting?

That...

[His intakes work.]

... Neither of us... control ourselves... well. After we ... have too much.

... What do you feel is the most appropriate course, then?

...

[Shrugs]

Why are you asking me? You think I know?

... Because I do not know the answer.

[ He hangs his head slightly, shoulders sagging. This had become entirely too complicated. ]

[He draws his good leg up, hunching slightly against the wall. They were supposed to be friends, not... whatever this was.]

... Neither do I.

... I do not want you to avoid me.

...

I do not know what else to do.

...

I do not have an answer for you. Only that this is not what I want.

...

[He sags a little, against the wall. Not the answer he was hoping for.]

What... is it you want...?

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